If I had a genie who would give me three wishes

1) 32 Hours of uninterrupted blissful sleep

2) Maybe a sandwich of some kind

3) The still beating heart of Jeff Gordan

Been Awhile

I think my heart has more or less shrivelled up and died. It's been so damn long since I've been anything but alone it's kinda scary and depressing. But I don't have the desire to be near someone and I completely balk at the chance to ask anyone out or do something social with a girl. It sounds fucking dumb but I'm not sure I would have any idea what to do in a relationship anymore, I've been dating myself for so long. I used to miss all the things you could do when you are in a relationship but now I don't even remember what those things were. Most of all I certainly don't feel like having my heart trampled on again. It's been years....

Also I haven't watched the Muppets in awhile, I'm not sure I'm ready to start doing that again either.

Flash Gordon

So I watched Flash Gordon this weekend late at night. It's a fantastic movie (if you are in to campy sci-fi, although it's representing the comic book so it's not really campy, whatever) and when I was bored last night I looked at imdb to figure out what all the actors who were in it were doing now. That's when I chanced upon this brilliant review, which rated the movie 10 stars:

"Dino DeLaurentiis' Flash Gordon is one of those rare movies that captures the imagination of the viewer, and doesn't let go until the final moments. It truly has everything you could ever want in a movie: compelling plot (the QB of the New York Jets has approximately 24 hours to save the Earth from total annihilation), violence, gore, great acting (Timothy Dalton, Brian Blessed, Max Von Sydow), action (the "Football Fight" in Ming's palace), drama, sexual situations (Princess Aura seducing Flash in her rocket, Dale Arden in Ming's bedroom), and babes (Ornella Muti as Princess Aura, and Melody Anderson as Dale Arden.) What more can you ask for in a movie? Nothing, I tell you, NOTHING!!! Actually, having read other comments elsewhere, I am extremely disappointed in the almost universal panning of the 2 leads, Sam J. Jones and Melody Anderson. These two fine actors put forth a masterful performance, and made you really believe the situations their characters found themselves in. I can't speak highly enough of their abilities, as they were never as good in anything else than they were here. Flash Gordon is the greatest movie of all-time- it has to be the greatest ever, because I wouldn't watch a movie over 300 timess if it wasn't. You think I'm kidding, but I'm deadly serious. The first time I saw it in the theater- 18 years ago- I was hooked for life. Please, whatever you do, watch this movie over and over- you'll be glad you did. "

That's fucking great. He'll save every one of us!

Quits? No way!

Sometimes I get caught up in the routine of life pretty hard. For the last two months or so I've been in a steady stream of work/gym/work/gym. I realized at some point last week that I hadn't taken a rest day at all since I went back to DC for my friend's wedding (althought I did drive up to LA one afternoon after the gym). The reason I was forced to realize this is that my body had ultimately told me in some not so subtle ways that it was a little worn out.

What I hate though is when I get into a schedule like that and I miss out on other aspects of life. It's frustrating when you don't take advantage of things around you and your life wholely revolves around 1 or 2 things. In my case I forget about things like family, friends, dating, going out, hobbies, etc. Well to be fair I always miss out on dating, but the rest of it holds pretty true. It is so frustrating some times that it makes me re-evaluate where I'm at and what I'm doing. When your mind is focused it can be a wonderful thing, when it's focused too closely on things you definitely run the risk of becoming too insular.

Sadly in terms of hobbies I need less of those, because I already have too much stuff. So I'm getting rid of at least three things! I'm thinking gunnery, party liquor, and masterbation but we'll see about that. Or maybe just the opposite, maybe I need to pick up more hobbies! Maybe I should take up model trains or some kind of death sport. Mmm death sports sound fun.

Where does the time go?

I feel like all I ever do now is work or work out at the gym. I moved to a completely new place and it's awesome and I've spent like 10 hours there in this month of August. I even got new furniture and still haven't had time to clean up the rest of my house or find a roomate. I wish I seriously had more hours in the day, it would be so helpful and life would be less frustrating.